Sick

So I have been sick for about a week and that totally sucks. I have been running a fever coughing and my nose is running like no other... I am feeling better today so I guess that is good since i have been sick since last sunday. i still have a horrible cough and my nose is still running. My ears got water in them and now one of my ears i can't hear out of but it is a little better since i put drops in them. I guess i am on my way to being the normal me...lol..anyway

So a lot has happened

Jd and cherellie had a baby...finally. She is a cute little girl. 8lbs 10oz and 21.5 inches long.
My dad's uncle passed away this morning. He had cancer that we just found out about a few days ago. And it was worse than the doctors thought. So i have to go to a funeral on thursday. so i had to get my schedule changed so i can go to the funeral.
I am sick thank god that i am off work and tomorrow so i am hoping i get filling better today and tomorrow. i have a terrible cough and my nose is running like none other.
Amber came by to see me at work yesterday. she is sad because she wants adam back. and as i know that will never happen. she has hurt adam badly and adam will NEVER take her back but she doesn't think that this is true she thinks that rach will break up with adam and adam will go back to her. because girls never stay forever with their first boyfriends. so basically i just let her vent and then she left.

lonely again

So I really felt like a third wheel tonight. it is hard to be the only one of your friends that doesn't have a boyfriend or girlfriend or husband. so when i got to kroger adam and rach were all over each other and so was jd and cherellie...so i felt so out of place. so i went inside because i felt i was in the way...i normally don't feel like that...but normally they don't hang and kiss like that so i felt like they wanted to be alone...and that kinda hurt...i am lonely but that just isn't something i can fix right now...i am 26 living at home with my parents i broke up with my last boyfriend but still don't feel right... i am not sure why i have not dated..i think i am a little scared that i will end up the same way so i feel like i am saving me and the other party involved a lot of heartache...it is tough to see my brother and his girlfriend hanging all over each other and knowing that he had his heart broke and he just bounced back and got back in another relationship i don't know how he can do it...but he is a guy maybe that is it...i don't know...i feel like i am not complete...i am missing something and i don't know if it is something that someone else has or if it is something my ex has...i know that i broke up with him but i think it hurt me more...he was my first true love and i thought we would be together forever( i am glad i was wrong) but i gave him my heart without a thought and now i regret giving it to anyone...i don't know...i don't like to feel like a third wheel but that is how i felt tonight and so now i feel ugly and lonely...