rough draft

Maybe you never loved me
you would probably disagree.
But love is just a word
with lots of definitions unheard.
You never listened to mine
maybe I shouldn't have re-defined
all my hopes and dreams
and all that I wanted to gleam
from your love and our life.
Did you ever want me as a wife?
Maybe we will never truely agree
that maybe we were never meant to be.
But now I'm ready for my chance of hope
I am finally ready to start to cope.
To this I say You Never LOVED ME!
Now I am finally Free!
because you never loved me,
loved me, just for me!

birthday

So I had my birthday this week and well what can i say I am now 27. I was excited about my birthday and then i remembered that grandma died on my birthday last year...so when i was thinking about it...it wasn't too bad but then aunt sherry called me and they sang me happy birthday and tell me that they would be praying for my mom and then i relized that it was because of grandma not because of anything else...at least i got to go out with emi on sat and that totally rocked...i love emi...emi, adam and i went out to eat and then walked around the mall...we saw a cover wrap that was priced $520.00...NO JOKE!!! i had a great time...thank god for them...they help me keep my sanity...

let down again

I should know better than to get my hopes up. I started talking to this guy and so we started to e-mail each other over the weekend. So we decided to e-mails pic and so i e-mailed mine first and i guess i should have waited until i saw him. guys are shallow and i know this and most guys only care about the outer apprence. so i guess i am back to square one. i guess i should have just left it alone and not emailed him at all let alone my pic and now i will never hear from him and so i guess i am a little depressed but that is how the cookie crumbles. oh well