mom and dad con't

we were hoping that mom and dad would be released today but that didn't happen. Mom is still in a lot of pain and then she broke out and had hives so they took her off all her pain meds and antibotics and that looked it help but then the new pain meds didn't work very well. We also found out that mom has a broken nose now after all and that really sucks because now she is going to have to have surgury after we get home from here. Dad had another chest xray and a mri today but we never show a dr so i guess no news is good news unless it is worse and they have to wait to see what needs to be done. i only saw moms dr again which no one can understand because his english isn't very good so it is very hard to figure out what he is saying but it didn't really matter because they took her off her pain meds and then put her back on them again.
I am tired and stress and seriously home sick. Our room looks out at the side of a building and it looks kinda like the side of kroger and that helps for a minute until i relize that i am actually 6 hours away from home and then it gets worse but it is worth it. i don't feel good. I just want to cry but that will not help anything and would probably give me a headache but at least i have my meds now that rach came here during her fall break and that kinda helps but she seems homesick also and that kinda makes it worse.
dad isn't going home he is going to a rehab center and we are hoping that it is the one that just opened and is very close to the house but i kinda hope that dad will not have to go at all. I wonder what life would be like without hope. it would be a sad sad life. i have always tried to be a positive person but it is hard when you have so much stress and you are so tired.
mom and i got into a fight today. and i apologied because i was tired stressed and just overwhelmed. i am very sorry about all that is going but i am just so tired and stressed and to think about how much stress adam is under is amazing he has taking a lot of the phone calls on his own. he has contacted like everyone but we normally will decise what is going on and then he would actually make the phone calls and set things up.
A little part of me wishs that this was just a terrible dream and that i am going to wake up and be home in my bed and mom and dad will be fine everything will work out i know it will(faith)...but i am a little scared too.

mom and dad

I got the worst call in the world on tuesday. I got a voicemail while i was at work telling me that my mom and dad had been in an accident. A lady in a town car pulled out in front of my mom and dads motorcycle. she pulled out in front of them like 10 feet and it was raining she said she didn't see them. that sounds like an admittion to me. Dad broke his arm, shattered his knee cap. Mom has a bruised ribs, chipped tooth and a bruised chin. So this is a bitch.

bad dream

i had a terrible nightmare this morning. I had a dream that i was at a house on the beach and then there was a big wave and i held on to the doorknob and then after the wave went back then. then i open the door and then i went inside and then i tried to shut the door and there were 3 kids saying trick or treat in a scarey voice and i yelled for brother domanic(i don't have a clue) and he went over and held the door there and then the door opened up and i saw the 3 kids in nosses being hung and the rope was going high and the they were being lifted over the doorway...it was scarey.

rough draft

Maybe you never loved me
you would probably disagree.
But love is just a word
with lots of definitions unheard.
You never listened to mine
maybe I shouldn't have re-defined
all my hopes and dreams
and all that I wanted to gleam
from your love and our life.
Did you ever want me as a wife?
Maybe we will never truely agree
that maybe we were never meant to be.
But now I'm ready for my chance of hope
I am finally ready to start to cope.
To this I say You Never LOVED ME!
Now I am finally Free!
because you never loved me,
loved me, just for me!

birthday

So I had my birthday this week and well what can i say I am now 27. I was excited about my birthday and then i remembered that grandma died on my birthday last year...so when i was thinking about it...it wasn't too bad but then aunt sherry called me and they sang me happy birthday and tell me that they would be praying for my mom and then i relized that it was because of grandma not because of anything else...at least i got to go out with emi on sat and that totally rocked...i love emi...emi, adam and i went out to eat and then walked around the mall...we saw a cover wrap that was priced $520.00...NO JOKE!!! i had a great time...thank god for them...they help me keep my sanity...

let down again

I should know better than to get my hopes up. I started talking to this guy and so we started to e-mail each other over the weekend. So we decided to e-mails pic and so i e-mailed mine first and i guess i should have waited until i saw him. guys are shallow and i know this and most guys only care about the outer apprence. so i guess i am back to square one. i guess i should have just left it alone and not emailed him at all let alone my pic and now i will never hear from him and so i guess i am a little depressed but that is how the cookie crumbles. oh well