9/16

is there a thin line that sepertes the hope fromt the hopeless
deep in my heart i know thare is someone for me but
i am starting to only believe it deep down
well, i am waiting..what is he doing?
is he waiting for me or he living life
i watch life unfold for everyone around me
what am i to do
i hate rejection and i don't want to put myself out there
i am afraid i hate tht i feel like that
it makes me mad to feel afraid of anything at all
i am going to ca, i am excited can't wait maybe
this will be good for me
maybe i will learn something about myself
...find a way to let it go
i just want to find my happiness
find my heart, find my hope



...and i felt hope

(6/6) jon. So finally carl tells jon that he is still in love with him to which jon didn't make a reply. So jon hasn't heard from carl in a couple of weeks.

(5/6) he wants jons number so i forward the text and jon says to give it to him. They talk for a week but carl doesn't want his wife to know he is talking to

(4/6) child on the way and jon moved to another city its a close city and jon and i are very close friends btw jon is still gay. So i get a text from carl and

(3/6) that knew they were together. They broke up carl moved to go to college and jon finished high school. Now 3 years later carl is married to a girl with a

(2/6) call him jon. It was a secret bc carl didn't want anyone to know he was gay on the other hand with jon everyone knew he was gay but i was the only one

(1/6) So one of my old friends called one of my friends...ok lets back up. Kroger 3 years ago my friend lets call him carl. Carl started to date someone lets