Showing posts with label vent. Show all posts
Showing posts with label vent. Show all posts
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Sorry
I think that is a word that i use too much. I am sorry. I'm sorry. I bet i say that at least a million times a day. But when you think about it what does it really mean to be sorry. I tell people all the time that i am sorry that this rang up wrong (like i have controll of it) but it is something that i have to say. So when you are truely sorry most people don't believe you. I am totally going to go off subject here. I am thinking about someones relationship that didn't work out and i am truely sorry that it fell to pieces but i told this person all about her and how she was have a hard to with a recent breakup but he didn't listen. And that makes me feel so sorry for him. And as i am thinking about why his relationship didn't work out I start to think about why i haven't been in a relationship lately. I am so f*ckin scared. I have always been afraid of rejection. I hate that feeling and in order to date you have to be willing to put yourself on the line for rejection. I am not sure if i am ready for that. Don't get me wrong i would love to go out on a date because i am so lonely but it scares me to think what happens if this person doesn't like me like that or what happens if i have a great time and they don't. i know that you can't live your life being afraid. I have lots of friends don't get me wrong i am not lonely like that. I spend a lot of time with my friends. But most my friends have others and i don't, that makes me a third wheel in everything except when it comes to my best friend...her husband is the third wheel...lol. I like that everyone likes me but noone likes me like that. I had a single male friend once, but he started dating someone. I just feel so lonely and it is not for a friend it is for the companionship of someone of the opposite sex. I long to be kissed again, hold hands again, talk to someone on the phone about nothing. I miss someone to hold me to touch me to feel me. But it seems that their is noone out there for me. I understand that it is when you least expect it, it will happen but i just wished it was sooner. I just wished i was not so scared to put myself out there. I have put myself out there and told someone things i would not tell anyone else, but that added up to not. I will i know how to move on with life and start a new life. how can you start again with you heart a million pieces. How can you pick up those pieces and move on with life. I wish i knew...sorry...lol
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Wondering
So as i sit here and ponder the strange things that i tend to ponder one thing sticks out more than others. It is the subject of soulmates.
How long must you know someone in order to say they are your soulmate?
Is this something that as soon as you meet you know?
Is it something you discuss with the other half of your soul?
Does the other half have to feel the same way?
Or can this be a one sided ideal?
Do you just walk down the street and someone catches your eye and at the moment you know that this person is your soulmate?
Do you have to even know this person(example while you were sleeping: she was in love with this man she had never meet but she sees him daily getting on the train)?
Who makes the rules to who is or who is not a soulmate or even soulmate material?
Can you have several people in the running for soulmate like an election?
So can you just narrow down the list of possible soulmates like the primaries?
Do you have to be in love with the person in order to label them a soulmate?
Does everyone really have a soulmate?
Are there people in the world that just wonder around in a daze state looking for their soulmate?
Will your soulmate someday just show up at your door and scream I AM YOUR SOULMATE!!!?
Do other people know who your soulmate is or are you the only one that really knows?
What does a soulmate do?
Do they hold some sort of a spell to cast over the other half or do they hold any power at all?
Does each person have to fill out an application in order to be a soulmate?
This whole soulmate topic has drained me so I went to wikipedia to find some more information on the subject. But it was not very helpfull.
According to wikipedia :Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility.
A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.
I like this definition better.
Classic Meaning of Soulmates
The concepts of soulmates arose from Greek mythology. According to the story, our ancestors once had 2 heads, 4 arms. They did something to offend a god so that god punished them by splitting them down the middle, resulting in the creation of humans. As a punishment, we are condemned to spend our lives searching for the other half, our soulmates.
Spiritual Soulmate Concepts
Many religions and spiritual paths believe in reincarnation and the concept of karma. Through reincarnation, soulmates may spend many lifetimes together in past lives. Other spiritual methods of searching for one's soulmate are astrology, numerology, palm reading, personality types, and magic. Modern spritual paths often blend western and eastern philosophies.
Companion Soulmates
These are people that we encounter through their life. These are usually friends, teachers, mentors, or other people who have helped you achieving a life's goal or helped you out of a crisis.
Twin Soulmates
These types of soulmate are your closest friends or a person whom you really click with. According to those who believe in reincarnation, you have already met them in a past life, and in this life you are continuing the relationship. There is an emotional bond between these soulmates and each is able to sense the feelings of each other..
Twin Flame Soulmates
This is the most popular type of soulmate. There is usually one twin flame soulmate for each of us. Twin flame soulmates have spent multiple lifetimes together in past lives. There is incredible chemistry and attraction towards each other. They "complete" each other and only few lucky people are able to find their twin flame soulmate. Twin flame soulmates, if separated, usually suffer enormous pain.
Sorry for the vent.
How long must you know someone in order to say they are your soulmate?
Is this something that as soon as you meet you know?
Is it something you discuss with the other half of your soul?
Does the other half have to feel the same way?
Or can this be a one sided ideal?
Do you just walk down the street and someone catches your eye and at the moment you know that this person is your soulmate?
Do you have to even know this person(example while you were sleeping: she was in love with this man she had never meet but she sees him daily getting on the train)?
Who makes the rules to who is or who is not a soulmate or even soulmate material?
Can you have several people in the running for soulmate like an election?
So can you just narrow down the list of possible soulmates like the primaries?
Do you have to be in love with the person in order to label them a soulmate?
Does everyone really have a soulmate?
Are there people in the world that just wonder around in a daze state looking for their soulmate?
Will your soulmate someday just show up at your door and scream I AM YOUR SOULMATE!!!?
Do other people know who your soulmate is or are you the only one that really knows?
What does a soulmate do?
Do they hold some sort of a spell to cast over the other half or do they hold any power at all?
Does each person have to fill out an application in order to be a soulmate?
This whole soulmate topic has drained me so I went to wikipedia to find some more information on the subject. But it was not very helpfull.
According to wikipedia :Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility.
A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.
I like this definition better.
Classic Meaning of Soulmates
The concepts of soulmates arose from Greek mythology. According to the story, our ancestors once had 2 heads, 4 arms. They did something to offend a god so that god punished them by splitting them down the middle, resulting in the creation of humans. As a punishment, we are condemned to spend our lives searching for the other half, our soulmates.
Spiritual Soulmate Concepts
Many religions and spiritual paths believe in reincarnation and the concept of karma. Through reincarnation, soulmates may spend many lifetimes together in past lives. Other spiritual methods of searching for one's soulmate are astrology, numerology, palm reading, personality types, and magic. Modern spritual paths often blend western and eastern philosophies.
Companion Soulmates
These are people that we encounter through their life. These are usually friends, teachers, mentors, or other people who have helped you achieving a life's goal or helped you out of a crisis.
Twin Soulmates
These types of soulmate are your closest friends or a person whom you really click with. According to those who believe in reincarnation, you have already met them in a past life, and in this life you are continuing the relationship. There is an emotional bond between these soulmates and each is able to sense the feelings of each other..
Twin Flame Soulmates
This is the most popular type of soulmate. There is usually one twin flame soulmate for each of us. Twin flame soulmates have spent multiple lifetimes together in past lives. There is incredible chemistry and attraction towards each other. They "complete" each other and only few lucky people are able to find their twin flame soulmate. Twin flame soulmates, if separated, usually suffer enormous pain.
Sorry for the vent.
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