just of thought

My brother and i have talked a lot recently about life and stuff. And i have done a lot of thinking about things changing. I have known for a while that i have been in a slump and things were not changing. I finished school and now all i do is work and that has been my life for the last 10 months. I go to work go to bed and repeat 5 days of the week and then on the other 2 i sleep late and don't do much of anything. I haven't really spent a lot of time with my best friend lately and i was thinking a lot about how my life needs a little bit of change. And i found myself now in charge of the house. Since mom and dad were in the accident i have spent a lot of time thinking about how my life was a lot different about 1 week ago. It is amazing how much can change in just about 7 days. wow...1 week, 7 days, 168 hours, 10080 minutes... i had to do the checkbook for my parents. And that wasn't hard but just confusing with so many different books and bills to deal with. Adam and i had to do grocery shopping and that was 90 dollars of my money and soon my money is going to run out, after the trip to penn and food there and gas there it eat up over 900 dollars of my laptop money... any way we cleaned out the refrid but the funny thing was a lot of the food we throw out was outdated over a month not like a week or two like i was thinking but we cleaned it out and now it looks great...keeping the house looking like that will be harder...
I didn't want this kind of change in my life i was hoping for a new job a teaching job but i guess change is change... i don't know what i am feeling i am just trying to deal with my parents accident and trying to keep everything above the water.
we don't have any idea when our parents are going to be released part of my wants it to be very soon and then part of me whats it to be whenever they are a lot better. It would put a lot more stress on me and adam if they were both at home. It would be like taking care of two babies or kids and i am not sure that i can deal with that now. i am just wondering what it holds for me...time will tell...