12.31.14

As i sit here and think about this year. I have moved to a new city and got a new job, which is great. But as far as love...i have come to the realization that i love someone i can't have. i have always loved his and he loved me. So as i sit here alone on new years eve in an empty house thinking about love and life. I just have to except that i am alone and have to be happy with it, even though i am used to being alone it is going to be harder when i move into an empty house. it will be just like this... I went back to my brother's and sister in laws for christmas i have never felt more out of place in my life...i am not home anywhere. not here not there, no where i fit in, i don't even fit in at work but i am trying really hard at that... so here is to a new year... can only go up from here, right? i can always have hope